Self Growth
One thing I’ve been focused on this year is self-growth. You can wait and have life force you to grow throughout the years, or you can take matters into your own hands. I know for me, I want to be the best version of myself and get stronger, wiser, and face my fears. I’m not the type of person to just go through the motions in my life. I want to create a life full of meaning and make an impact on the world.
About a month ago, I started consuming running content and somehow got sucked into learning about David Goggins. I don’t know if you know who David Goggins is, here is a little description of him:
“David Goggins is an American motivational speaker, author, and retired United States Navy SEAL. He is also an ultramarathon runner, ultra-distance cyclist, triathlete, public speaker and the author of two memoirs, and was inducted into the International Sports Hall of Fame for his achievements in sports.”
David Goggins suffered from abuse as a child, was diagnosed with sickle cell, and suffers from learning disabilities. He decided he was going to prove everyone wrong who didn’t think he was going to make it, became a Navy Seal, has completed seventy ultra-marathon races, became a smokejumper (someone who fights wildfires by parachuting out of a plane into a remote area to fight the fires), and he is also a paramedic in Canada. After listening to his story, I kinda reassessed my life. I think because I’ve played volleyball my whole life, in my mind, playing college volleyball was my end goal. I thought that was the most in shape I would be in my life, and after college volleyball my goal was just to maintain that strength that I had. I quickly realized that in front of me was the road to the rest of my life and that it didn’t just stop once I was done playing in college. I have my WHOLE life to become the best possible version of myself physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. How amazing is that?
So naturally, after that realization, I signed up for a 25k (15.8 mile) that was scheduled to be in a month. It gave me something to work towards. I’m not working towards being in the best shape for the upcoming volleyball season, no, I’m working towards living a longer, healthy life.
My goal for my career has been to work for myself full time. I clean houses but not full time yet. But I know that cleaning houses is just part of my career journey for right now, it’s not the end goal. I think God is giving me very valuable lessons that will help me towards my future goals. I’m going to create a wellness compound. I picture a lot of land, outside of the city. There’s a twenty person sauna there, cold plunges, an indoor/outdoor barn gym, a community space type of house where people can come during the day and work or just hangout, a cafe, maybe there will be some farm animals, a regenerative farm, just a beautiful place for people to connect with nature with like minded people who are working to become the best versions of themselves. That is what I am working towards. There’s only so much I can do right now to work towards it since I don’t have that kind of money right now. Something I’ve been doing is sharing this idea with the people around me, it’s a way to hold myself accountable and maybe there will be a connection with someone who I tell that will be able to help me with the goal. But it’s going to happen, just by typing these words right now, I can feel it being written into my future story.
I encourage you to work towards becoming the best version of yourself. Keep pushing yourself. Humans are capable of so much and it seems like we are only using a fraction of that potential. When I’m lying on my deathbed and replaying my life in my head, I want to be thinking “wow, I really squeezed every bit of life out of this life, and really made a difference.” We need to dream big. Sometimes it’s hard to dream big because we have all these self-limiting beliefs. I know I do. I have self-limiting beliefs around my wellness compound. One thing I struggle with is communicating. Sometimes it feels like I can’t even form a sentence when talking to someone. It’s like I’m thinking too hard about what I’m trying to say and then it fumbles my words. Or someone will start talking to me and it feels like I lose my breath. Or sometimes it feels like I don’t even care about what the other person is saying or I just don’t know how I can keep the conversation going. It’s like I have a hard time connecting with people. And that’s something that weighs on me with my wellness compound because I want it to be a place where people can connect and feel loved and welcomed, and I’m thinking “how will I make this wellness community when it’s so hard for me to just talk to one person?” But I know it’s just something that I can practice at and get better at. It’s a fear of mine that’s going to turn into my superpower.
What is a fear of yours that you can turn into your superpower?
